Summertime Lullabies

by Capris Esguerra

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about

for you, for us, for love.

for whatever once was.

for the last two summers.

for all the magic in between.

for the reality, for the illusions, for all the little things.

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released June 25, 2016

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Track Name: Black Eye
Poppin' bottles every night
I look out for you
But you don't look my way

I'm driving past
Three red lights
You give yourself a black eye

Poppin' bottles every night
Take your Uber and your Lyft
Ain't picking you up tonight

Oh no
Track Name: Intouchability
I don't understand why you have to lie to my face, it's not okay

I don't understand why you have to lie, it's not alright

It's not alright

I don't understand why you have to hide, be a mystery

I understand you want to keep your privacy

I don't understand why you have to lie, it's not alright

It's not alright

You said you we were fine

You said "You don't have to worry"

You said "You're never gonna lose me"

I don't understand why you have to lie to my face, it's not okay

I don't understand why you have to lie, it's not alright

It's not alright, no
Track Name: Wolf
I see you on the other side of the moon
I hear you howling, but your call's not for me
Track Name: Ode to a Narcissist
You like to say that I'm such a giant drag
Who only holds you back

Baby your reflection only sees your narcissism
You only love who you see in front of the mirror
Nobody honestly

You say you're a master of disguise
You say that you're so much more
But you're full of lies

You like to think of yourself
As a God-like figure
But no you're

You're small in every single way
Yet you talk and talk
It's such a display

You have nothing to feel inside
Your minds not right

But in the end I know you are so strong
But you act so cold and numb

You gotta spread your plague on me

Baby you only love who's staring back at you
But at the end of your life
Nobody's gonna come visit your tomb

I don't know about you and me
But I think about you constantly
And I'm tired
Track Name: Happy New Years
Oh woke up one night
Saw your car and you picked me up
In the middle of the night

Drove around to the spot where we see
Where the dirt and the grass fall beneath me

Told me how much you missed me
How you were listening to our songs constantly

You asked me if I shared any of myself
With anybody else but you
I lied a thousand times to you

But what do you expect
When your heart is shattered
Gotta fill the void
Gotta fill the hole

What about you?
What about you?

You like to say things you don't mean
How I'm great
And how you are an awful being

At first I honestly didn't think that was true
But you insisted and now I believe you

When will I be free?

When will I be free
Of this awful mystery
That is you

You don't care about
Anybody else but you

You like to say you're fragile
Maybe you are

I wish I get hit by a car
Track Name: Thrifted Couch
Time is racing so fast, don't you see?

We're only 23

Where we gonna go?

The next 7 years are yet to be told

Yet to be told

Where are you now?

Sitting on that thrifted couch

When are you gonna see?
Track Name: I Wanna Believe
I wanna believe that everything is gonna be okay

I wanna believe in everything that you say

I wanna believe in myself how I believed in you

I wanna believe in something too

I wanna believe you're gonna come back

I wanna believe that you're gonna stay

I wanna believe you're that one

I wanna believe you're not the one holding the gun

I wanna believe in you

I wanna believe this is a nightmare

I wanna believe that is just some fucked up medicated induced dream

I wanna believe you're gonna come back

I wanna believe that we're gonna be okay

I don't wanna believe what my friends say

I don't wanna believe all the harsh things that you said

I don't wanna believe anything anymore
Track Name: Obsessed Pt. 1
I get a little obsessed
Every now and then
And I can't help it

If I'm not set on you
Then forget about it

I like the crazy
Over the ones
That never want me back
Track Name: Obsessed Pt. 2
I get a little obsessed
Every now and then
And I gotta face the facts
Nobody wants me right now
Can't for less then anything
I wanna be

And I
If you don't catch my eye
I don't wanna see you
I don't wanna be next to you

If my eyes aren't tinted red
Then you can forget about it
Forget about it
Track Name: Obsessed Pt. 3
I get a little obsessed
Every now and then
And I gotta face the fact
Nobody wants me right now
Can't settle for anything less that
I don't wanna be

And I
If you don't catch my eye
Then I don't wanna see you
I don't wanna breathe next to you

If my eyes aren't tinted red
Then you can forget about it

I have a little problem being obsessed, yeah
It flows inside of me like a drug
Being injected inside of me

I can't help it at all, no

And you like to say sure you can be nice
Yeah you can make me smile
Make me laugh for a little while

But I like the crazy
I like the insanity
And I like broken ukuleles
And I like broken vocal chords

I like insanity
I like all chocks and punches
That my mind has absorbed
I like the thorns

I like the broken glass
I like the slits on your wrists
I like the blood
I like the threats
I like every little dark part of it

Don't wipe me clean
You'll never get anything

"Hug me"

No my heart is closed

Don't try to figure me out
Don't try to make me realize
Cause I don't want anything
Unless its from you

But that's not gonna happen at all
Track Name: Black Eye
Poppin' bottles every night
I look out for you
But you don't look my way

I'm driving past
Three red lights
You give yourself a black eye

Poppin' bottles every night
Take your Uber and your Lyft
Ain't picking you up tonight

Oh no
Track Name: Unhappy
If you're unhappy, you're unhappy

I won't hold you back

If you're unhappy, you don't have to look back

My paranoia makes me so unwell,

I constantly wish I was buried 6 feet under the ground

Close to hell

All we do is fight, heavy breaths in the middle of the night,

I'm afraid my love for you is a flat line

If you're unhappy, you're unhappy

I won't hold you back, be a road block, be distracting

And if I'm exhausting to you,

I'll disappear